you know that one thing you feel when you stay awake until late just because you want to feel like shit the next day. Its pretty good. you get to get the best out of yourself. its like you never went past that one other day, or week, or month. You just didnt. you just feel like you dont deserve hapiness. hapiness is for accomplished people, not some stupid dork. thats why i try to not be happy. i dont deserve it. hapiness should be reserved for those who have accomplished big things